It seems I've been in this place before.. many times before, in fact. It follows a period of having all my shit figured out. And then you're here, and you know that change is imminent but you don't know how it's going to play out or how you're going to make it all work so that it well, works.
I thought I knew what I wanted to do with my life, or "when i grew up," but I'm realizing now that what I thought i was going to be doing over the next number of years was merely a step in the direction of what I was actually going to be doing. I am closer now to knowing what it is I was meant to do, what my "genius" is, as my good friend calls it, and it scares the heck out of me because it's a big change. It will mean new training and it will mean stepping out into something new and unknown, and well, that's scary enough, don't you think?
And it's so funny how life/universe/God sends things your way when you most need it. Lately I've read a couple of posts from a couple of ladies I admire (and who I have recently discovered, but see, discovered them at the very moment I needed them) who have written about not having it all figured out, and that it's ok. In fact, it's normal and expected in the life of someone who wants to keep growing, reaching, searching for a life that completely fits, and brings us closer to who we are and what we were meant for.
If you are searching, or unsatisfied with the status quo and and looking for something better.. that better fit with who you are, please don't give up. Keep searching, keep reaching. You will will find what you are looking for, I so guarantee it. And if you need a little additional encouragement, visit these ladies.. I've linked their recent blog posts that rock! They are full of life, inspiration and honesty, just what you need at a time like this: Tia Sparkles & Sally Hope.